The Big “C”

The poem by Faye Harvin, who was diagnosed with HER2-positive breast cancer called ductal carcinoma in situ, illuminates the all-consuming aspects of a familiar, but surprising, “C” word.
April 2021 Vol 7 No 2
Faye Harvin
Charlotte, North Carolina

It came out of nowhere

The Big “C” left me in fear for I had no idea what
I would hear

The Big “C” consumed me

It was the first thing I thought about when I got
out of bed, and throughout the day it consumed
what I read, how would I ever get this thought out
of my head, it was the last thing I thought about when I went back to bed

I couldn’t go to work, I had to stay home,
what was so puzzling was I didn’t know for how long

I didn’t want anyone to touch me or give me a hug,
at a time like this, who wouldn’t need love

Now the world knows just how I feel as we suffer
through this ordeal. It seems as no one has a
real answer, as you’ve listened to me, you may
have assumed I was talking about cancer

When you look at a flower, you cannot mistake a
lily for an iris, for all this time I’ve been talking about
the coronavirus

The only reason I can take comfort in all that I see,
is now the world knows what it has felt like to be me

After a routine mammogram in November 2018, I was diagnosed with HER2-positive breast cancer called ductal carcinoma in situ. Although this experience has forever changed my life, I have gone from existing to living, and from surviving to thriving.

Copyright © 2020 by Faye Harvin

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